I have heard about one Zen nun. She died, but before she died she asked her disciples, “What do you suggest? How should I die?” It is an old tradition in Zen that masters ask; they can die consciously, so they can ask. And they are so playful even about death, so humorous about it, joking, laughing, they enjoy devising methods how to die. So disciples may suggest, “Master, this will be good, if you die standing on your head.” Or someone suggests, “Walking, because we have never seen anyone die walking.” So this Zen nun asked,” What do you suggest?”
They said, “It will be good if we prepare a fire, and you sit in it and die meditating.” She said, ” This is beautiful, and never heard of before.” So they prepared a funeral pyre, the nun made herself comfortable in it, sat in a Buddha posture, and then they lit the fire.
One man from the crowd asked, “How does it feel there? It is so hot that I cannot even come nearer to ask you- that’s why I am shouting. How does it feel there?”
The nun laughed and said, “Only a fool can ask such a question — How does it feel there? There it always feels cool, perfectly cool.” She is talking of her inner being, her center. There it is always cool and only a foolish person can ask. It is obvious. When a person is ready to sit in a pyre meditating, and then the pyre is burnt and she is sitting silently, obviously it shows that this person must have achieved the innermost cool point which cannot be disturbed by any fire. Otherwise, it is not possible.
So when you are lying on your bed, feverish, on fire, the whole body burning, just watch it. Watching, you will recede towards the source. Watching, not doing anything…. What can you do? The fever is there, you have to pass through it; it is no use unnecessarily fighting with it. You are resting, and if you fight with the fever you will become more feverish, that’s all. So watch it. Watching fever, you become cool; watching more, you become cooler. Just watching, you reach to a peak, such a cool peak, even the Himalayas will feel jealous; even their peaks are not so cool. This is the Gourishankar, the Everest within. And when you feel that the fever has disappeared…. It has never really been there; it has only been in the body, very, very far away. Infinite space exists between you and your body — infinite space, I say. An unbridgeable gap exists between you and your body. And all suffering exists on the periphery. Hindus say it is a dream because the distance is so vast, unbridgeable. It is just like a dream happening somewhere else — not happening to you — in some other world, on some other planet.
When you watch suffering suddenly you are not the sufferer, and you start enjoying. Through suffering you become aware of the opposite pole, the blissful inner being. So when I say enjoy, I am saying: Watch. Return to the source, get centered. Then, suddenly, there is no agony; only ecstasy exists.
-A Bird On The wing, OSHO